So as most of you know kay and i went to the tmg concert a couple days ago, and i don't know if any of you know this but i'd never been to a concert before that. So now i'm all obsessed about concerts and i'm goign to a bunch of them and i was wondering if any of you guys wanted to go.
On april 4 i'm going to a dinosaur jr show at the higher ground in burlington vt.
On may 1 i'm goign to a mogawi concert in boston
 And doubtful i might go to a mastodon concert on may 7 if my mom lets me

So if anyof you want to come that'd be awesome, i mean its not really your type of music but it'd still be fun.
just comment if you do, thats all. I hope everyones having a good break

So i just got back from my aunts house in new jersey and it was nice. I saw a bunch of colleges and went to nyc and washington dc. But i'm back home now and so anyone whos around and wants to get together tomorrow or sometime comment or something. It'd be nice to do something, i'm feeling better but its still nice to just go somewhere and hang out with you guys, i promise i won't be emo, SO hopefully see you soon.

I hate spring break, i just want to get back to doing something. I'm so bored and lonely and i totally agree with elise that we should do something. I still miss lauren though not as much and i still wish i had never gotten together with her. I guess i just want stuff to happen. I have my life because its so goddamn boring. I'm just so fucking lonely

So um, i dunno, i was talking to my aunt today and i feel really good. I f=see lauren for the bitch she is and she isn't and was never right for me. our relationship was baised on sex and i regret it. i guess i was happy but if i could take it back i would. But i feel free, by no means am i ok but i don't want to talk to her anymore, i just want her gone. I feel hopeful and we really should do stuff next week, and to kay i think i'm gunna go to the mountain goats show thats not seated. But i'm reading a lot and i'm ready to move on with my life, i'm sure i'll relapse but right now i feel so good

Hey everybody i'm going out of the state untill monday and i will be internetless, so text me or call me if you want to say hi or something. I'm still wicked hurt by lauren, and life really sucks, but i won't do anything stupid its really good to know how much you all care. So yeah, feel free to text me. Lauren is an evil slut and i hate her and i regret ever going out with her and i just i wish i had never fallen in love with her. BUt i'll see you all sometime next week. bye

I don't know what this is a confession, a plea for help, a goodbye, or just a rant but i don't want to live. Lauren to me represented everythign that was good in the world and as much as everyone says i'll get over her all thats been happening is that its getting worse. I don't want to live in a world without lauren, in a world where all that represented good is being corrupted and doing horrible things. Giving blowjobs, drinking, fucking, jsut fooling around. How could what represented joy and happiness be corrupted like that, I want to die but i'm too scared to try because of what would happen if i live, i hope one day i get the courage to do it. I'll never find someone as beautiful as lauren, someone who hakes me as happy as she did. She was the pinnical of life, she was the best thing that could've ever happened to me. NOthing is worth it anymore. I know i've been seeminng better bust thats jsut because i wanted to give gthings a chance people said it'd get better in time but its only gotten worse, i mean theres no reason anymore, she was the only thing i truely cared abnotu she was my life, and now thats gone and i'm miserable and i want to die, i just want to fallasleep and never wake up. I can't live without her and i want to die. i just want to die. I don't see that point i don't see a reson i can't live like this anymore, i just want it all to end. I know i can never get her back, not in the way i need. I doubt in anyway at all either. She was hope she was love she was life she was joy happiness and all that was good in the world and now thats all gone. Things will never be as good as they were with her. i will never get the same joy out of life. I hope i can do it soon and just leave it all behind and never have to deal with life again. I'm a coward and i jsut want to take the cowards way out, i hope i can soon. Thanks you all for trying, i'm sorry i'm so pathetic and i can't get over a person who has become a slut and a bitch, well i guess she always was i just thought i could change that. I was wrong and now i jsut want to die and be gone from this awfful place

LAUREN GAVE ANOTHER GUY A BLOWJOB A WEEK AND A HALF AFTER WE BROKE UP AND SHE KEEPS DELETING THIS POST SO I CHANGED MY PASSWOR, SHE IS A ITCH AND A SLUT AND DESERVES TO SUFFER

So I want to go see burn after reading sometime this weekend, so who's going to be around and wants to go to a movie, just leave a comment, i'm free all weekend and I don't want to be weird and go to a movie alone. so Yeah thats it, I really should post more but I'm feeling lazy now and maybe I will later

So I haven't posted in a while, and I feel like I should. In case any of Y'all don't know what I've been up to I was in california for 2 weeks, got back for a few days then went to the cape. Just a warning, the rest of this is going to be crazy as its 3 am. Oh hey, tv, so i've been watching a shitload of anime cause you know...I can. Death note is awesome, its like this psychologiocal drama about lots of death. And I'm pretty sure cowboy bebop is the best show ever> I also watched a bunch of brittish comedys(ok 2) but yeah, the it crowd was awesome and the office is great. Um, more rambling as sleep is not wanted by me.

I watched juno the other day and suprisingly I liked it, if only real teen pregnency was like that, but nope, and so umm...I'm going to make sure that doesn't happen.

Oh and the sgt. peppers icon, made of win. I would rant about it but I give you all enough credit to have listened to it (please don't prove me wrong).

this is getting more and more pointless, I want to go back to school but that hasn't stopped me from laughing at lauren for being there already. Summer is getting a bit old.

I need to go to the obama offiice tomorow today, and get a bumpersticker and t-shirt, or go whereever I get that kind of thing, and I have a bunch of over due library books, which sucks

I got a new pasport cause I can

ummm. I need to sleep, goodnight internet

MEME! Stolen from Kay.

1. Pick 10 15 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Fill in the film title once it's guessed.
5. NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search functions. (No cheating while guessing!)

1.Time for a bit of the old ultraviolence (Clockwork Orange;Loztspaz18)
2.who needs all of that when you have heroin (Trainspotting;colorxmexinsane)
3.They're taking the hobbits to isengard (lotr:The Two Towers;kay bird)
4.Let me tell you what 'Like a Virgin' is about. It's all about a girl who digs a guy with a big dick. The entire song. It's a metaphor for big dicks.(sorry that was vulgar) (Reservoir dogs;Lostspaz18)
5.Don't be so gloomy. After all it's not that awful. Like the fella says, in Italy for 30 years under the Borgias they had warfare, terror, murder, and bloodshed, but they produced Michelangelo, Leonardo da Vinci, and the Renaissance. In Switzerland they had brotherly love - they had 500 years of democracy and peace, and what did that produce? The cuckoo clock. So long Holly.
6.I love the smell of napalm in the morning.( Apocalypse Now;Loztspaz18)
7. As far back as I can remember, I always wanted to be a gangster.(Goodfellas;Loztspaz18)
8.A boy's best friend is his mother.(Psycho;Loztspaz18)
9.me so horny (Full Metal Jacket
10.The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he did not exist. And like that... he is gone.
11.Gentlemen, you can't fight in here! This is the War Room. (dr. strangelove; lostspaz18)
12.Have you ever had a dream, Neo, that you were so sure was real? What if you were unable to wake from that dream? How would you know the difference between the dream world and the real world?(The Matrix;Colorxmexinsane)
13.All right, Mr. DeMille, I'm ready for my close-up. (Sunset Blvd.;Loztspaz18)
14. can't help what I do! I can't help it, I can't...
15.When there's no more room in hell, the dead will walk the earth

Some of those are going to be hard, and some are not in english orignally

So umm, You all like musicals, well I found the best musical ever, its about a supervillain and its the best ever(did I already say that, cause it is).
So its called Dr. horrible and its free to watch until sunday so get on it

http://www.drhorrible.com/

So I had the most interesting day I've had in a while. I drove over to concord for a thing(not sure what it was exactly, but they closed down main st. and had a bunch of stuff for sale) because claire told me there were a bunch of 3$ dollar records. OH random comment, I got my license if I didn't say that already (I'm not sure if I did). Sorry about that, back to my story, So I got to concord and after some searching I found the record place and the shitload of records there in. After about an hour of searching i got 15 records for 30$. Then I saw jake and talked to him for a while. Wait i forgot something, Man, I can't tell stories, So I had so many records I needed a box and the box I got was a vodka box so I got some odd stares and I was walking around. So I next had some chinese food for dinner and then went back for some more records, I got 10 more, for a total for 25 records for 50$. It was a good day.

So obviously I'm not having a movie party as no one can come.

I could rant about how bored I've been but how could that possibly be intresting in any way at all. So I'll rant about an album Daydream Nation by sonic youth, its a bit out there if you don't like noisy guitars so don't feel obligated to listen to it, I just wanted to say I really like it. As for an album people would actully like try The Stranger by billy joel, Its really good, and I belive just had its 30th anniversy.

So I've been doing a lot of reading, still non-fiction mainly but I've been trying to dip back into a little fiction. I'm reading this really good if A little dark book called the lucifer effect:Understanding how good people trun evil. Its about the situtional factors that can turn normal people evil, its really good, if you have any intrest in psychology give it a try.

As for the next week I still have little going on, so if anyone wants to do something that'd be cool, but I'm finding ways to keep myself amused. And now I must go my record needs flipping.

So I'm going to plan something, I'll have a movie party at my house on Friday, Just tell me if you can come, I have nothing to do at all so you can come whenever. If no one can come just let me know. But I'm just so bored and everyone else has stuff to do, jobs and camps and all that. So I think it'd be fun to do something thats all.

So while some people have to much going on in their summer I am sort of bored out of my mind. I have nothing to do until I go to california. So first of all, who's free this week to do something, anything at all. We could have a party, go see a movie, just hang out whatever, I need to do something or I may well go insane, well more insane then I already am.

In other news I got my license finally, I've just been to lazy to go to the dmv for a while. I didn't take the worst photo ever, it's not good, just not awful. I got loads of records since I've gotten back from medcamp, a couple dozen if not more.

So for the first time in a while I have an album to rant about, its Nevermind by Nivana, you need to have this album, it is the call of an apathetic generation. It really is a brillant album, plese get it, its awesome.

So yeah...I've got nothing at all to do, I've been playing lots of video games and watching lots of movies, listening to lots of music and reading a lot and I'm so fucking bored. So if anyone has ideas for something to do or whatever leave a comment.

For so so so many reasons I should be asleep. but I'm not, I've become an insomniac. I haven't posted in ages. I;m not going to rant about an album or anything, just rant. I got a stupidly short hair cut today but I;ll live, I got sick from staying up till 4 am talking yesterday. I'm in a weird mood, I;m going to miss my records. I'm going record shopping in boston tomorrow. I have to wear a suit for 10 days. I'm just kind of in a stream of conciesness right now. I'm tired, I finally get what being an insomniac is like, you want to sleep but can;t, My mind won't turn off. this is my mind constanly. It sucks, Med camp will be fun but sleep will not happen as much as I would like. Matt will be hanging out with us for 10 days, IT will warp his mind. I can still remember what that was like being inducted into the group, It was scaryreally scary.

So I'm wondering if anyone wants do do anything tomorrow, I've been getting kind of bored of late and am wondering if anyone wants to get something togther for tomorrow, A movie party, a movie, just hanging out, whatever. Just comment if you have any ideas/want to do something.

Edit: How about a movie party at my house, unless someone has a better idea

So I would make a real post, but my music broke yesterday and I have to fix that, I got 3 albums today, a bunch of books, mostly non fiction about psychology. I didn't get my license because all the times for road tests were taken so I have to go back monday morning.

Thats all Time to read

So its almost 1 in the morning and I just brewed myself a cup of coffee but its okay I've already slept. I sort of died in my room at 8 in my clothes and with the light on. So I'm sort of going to watch movies now and hope tomorrow doesn't suck hard for it.

PS: I will rant about this album later

Edit 1: So it is now 1, I have a feeling further entries/edits with be fun and made at like 3-4 am. This will be a good night.

Edit 2: So the coffee has kicked in and I am wide awake at 2 am. I'm half way done my movie, I just needed to take a break from it. Its hot fuzz which is awesome btw. I think I may pull an all nighter because why the hell not.

Edit 3:I guess I could make a new entry but I'm not going to. Its now 3:30 in the morning and I"m still wide awake. I'm not watching commentary on hot fuzz because I love commentary. I don't think I'll be getting sleep tonight, well anymore sleep.  I like this early morning posting because it'll be fun to read later.

Edit 4:So hey its 5 in the morning and the suns come up woo.

Edit 5:I slept a bit an am awake at 10 now. Last night was rather fun and I'm fine now.

So I was/am bored so I've been wandering around the interwebz. I found this awesome image but Warning Spoilers.

I don't really have anything to say but  music wise give this album a try Its rap so it'll broaden your musical horizons. Its wicked funny and quotes the saftey dance. Its called The Bake Sale by the Cool kids. Give it a listen please, if you even remotely like rap/hip hop give it a try its rather far form the mainstream.

One day left w00t. But of course its chem damn it.

So I haven't posted in a while because I've kind of been dead(damn you Claire for getting me sick). The sat2s weren't that bad although some of the math questions were impossible. I really don't have much to say today to be honest just kind of killing time right now.

Oh I thought of a couple things. I got this night time cold medicine which is awesome because after I take it I'm kind of drunk so its awesome. And for everyone that likes coldplay ( not me) their new album leaked on the internet,http://www.mininova.org/tor/1478888, there you go.

So for my album this time I picked an easy one I won't even link to it because I know you'll all hate it. Its awesome though, Its songs about fucking by big black. Its the noiseist record ever the guitars sound like buzzsaws and the drums are loud as hell.